Away Too Long

I suffer like an ice on a hot rod,
I suffer like a patient without morphine,
These eyes they are certainly not mine.
Nor are these limbs or these ears.

Like a big wave,
Like an unfinished storybook,
Like a wind traveling thousand miles,
I let my mind wander.

Let it wander said my body,
To ease the sufferings.
The warmth I felt; almost cold,
Ever since that big wave hit me.

Of what use are these musings?
Or are they ramblings?
Why isn't anyone punishing me?
For being away too long.

You know its just wonderful....Continued after 2 yrs

When you can still remember your blog's password after 2 years. When you still think you are a teenager although you are fast approaching the 30s. When a hot chick thinks you are good looking(ok, maybe i am making this up). When you can still feel the raindrops....hear them so damn loudly still. When you can still wake up at 930 and go to work. When you can still listen to great Tamil songs (previously thought that's it). When you can still dream and smile a bit thinking of your dreams. When you can still feel that stupid pulling force...like how the force of earth pulls a drop of water to it's heart. When you can still walk slowly, and while walking someone looks at you directly and smiles. A smile from a perfect stranger, that's lovely don't you think?
When you can still imagine and day-dream. When you can touch your tummy and still feel it is flat. When you....ohhh, whatever.

That's it for now. For me to read in another 20 yrs time.

Some nice lines

Rain. Tiny leaves. Blossoming flowers. Wet earth. Mild weather, moody skies. All these, and a little recollection..of some nice lines.

Well she's walking through the clouds with a circus mind that's running round.... - Jimi Hendrix
Hike up your skirt a little more and show your world to me, in a boys dream - Dave Matthews

Warm dreams. Warmer hearts.

Pudurayavil Oru Kaathal Kathai

Kannamma konjum nilamma!!

Suttum vizhi chudardhaan kannamma suriya chandiraroa
Vattak kariya vizhi kannamma vaanak karumai kolloa

Bhayangara slow mama nee!!! Bus ponna thaan theriyum. Naa unne intha kariya building kulle romance pannuven mattum nee ethirpaakathe!!

An affair....

Oh well...that shall not describe my disappearance. But the idea was playing in my head for quite a bit now. NOW? maybe now isnt that appropriate, replace it with not too far back. my verdict on that was, affairs arent worth it, not emotionally, not financially, not time wise, but why do normal-joes with normal lives go for such a thing..jumping hormones and the other head thinkin could be the answer..:D.

with or w/o intentions my brains had been dragging me to a past that i lived, say 6 yrs back. the things which happened are all still fresh, can still feel the juices..no, dont get me wrong. i just wanna highlight how fresh those memories are, not the FEELINGS, pls get that right.

and stupidly, i wanted to revisit those memories. for what, god knows. great delusion!! haha..humor me joes. i am really like an unstable atom at the moment, can jump states at any instant, without notice..hehe, not too good isnt it? but not fickle. theres a fine line there. go figure.

of course there are things and ppl in my life that i really do appreciate, more than anything. and will swim the seven seas for them, not literally. these are the nice things i have, my real treasures, and my future, NOPE they arent as bleak as the past...

like someone said, life is too fragile, we cant stay, when our turn's up..so folks live like there's no tomorrow, and make sure your conscience is as clear as day 1. thats the lesson i learnt, these few months.

freckles, locks, curls and dimples..whats life w/o them? also shit, piss, wax and pimples..whats life w/o them? my second lesson. sometimes, life is really like a cekodok, with more tepung but less banana, but you dont throw that cekodok away, do you?..something like that laa...

to the title i shall add...that i DO NOT want to remember. thats all for now, sorry for ruining your day. have fun.

You know its just wonderful....

When you can get up at 9.30 am everyday, and get paid for it. When you can have a hot steamy bath after spending long hours in a friggin' cold lab. When you can say the stupidest things without having the fear of being judged. When you forget to brush your teeth or when you accidentally apply facial foam on your hair thinking its shampoo and can still smile thinking about it. When you have all the freedom in the world to pick the rock you want to jump on or the post you want to lean on. When you can laugh non-stop until your whole body shakes. When you can eat a plate of CKY and a bowl of black mountain for 1.80. When you are able to listen to great songs all day, and can relate to some of the songs and move your hips a little when no one's looking. When you find an extra 10 bucks in your pocket without having the slightest idea how it got there in the first place. When you get locked outside your house for hours, without your wallet, coins or cigarettes. When you can watch Barcelona beating Chelsea in a CL match and the camera recording an emotional sobbing Mourinho. When you dont have to worry about money anymore. When you can have a decent intellectual stimulating conversation with the person you love the most. When you can sleep soundly without thinking over whats happening around you. When a hot chick says you are good-looking. When you can see kids playing football like Maradona in Malaysia. When you can complete 100 metres in 12 seconds (slow but ok). When you can just stare and stare and stare and stare without having to say a single word to convey your feelings. When you get a kiss from a never seen 2-year old kid for no apparent reason.